What's Left of Me

This is me bridging the gap to the next chapter

Remember that day
When I had no sleep
But to see your face
Was more than I need

Remember that night
When I just want to lay
But to kiss your lips
Was worth the frail trade

Oh, you had me by step one
And the thrust cannot be undone

What's left of me
Is myself and the wind gushing through my ardent face
What's left of me
Is the soulful melody stuck in between my ears
What's left of me
Is just enough of what I need to cherish this night
What's left of me
Are the things I should have been working on all this time

You've had so much visions
Hopes of us together
Getting old wrapped around
Each other's longing arms

And I have looked forward

For everyday to feel

Like it's always the first time

Just because you said so

But what are these visions
When you can't even see
The reality of me
Standing in front of you

You don't understand my concept of rest
It has always been to waste such precious time
Plainly looking right through your gleaming eyes
Thinking how lucky I am to be holding your hand

I have blatantly believed I will have you for forever
And never thought I'd only have you for a night
Now I hope I was numb, never feeling any passion
Because I'm sure of the beating, why would I still fight?

Maybe it's the poison, maybe it's the wine

Maybe it's the overwhelming roller coaster ride

Maybe it's the addiction, or just the plain obsession

All I know is I've brought this to the end

Do I deserve something that will last forever?

I am uncertain because I am such a contradiction

I've damaged the best thing that has come my way

But as I am still breathing, I will go on believing