I'm Only 21

That moment when your idol said her 20s felt like 20 years instead of 10 years and it hits you that you're rushing life way too fast. Well, that happened to me today. Haha, self realization at its finest.

All week I was so low because of what's happening in my life, yet so high because Kelly Clarkson is releasing her first Greatest Hits collection this Monday, November 19, 2012. I've always believed that life is full of temporary highs amidst the lows and problems. This day, I realized that I can view it the other way around: life is full of temporary lows amidst the joys and wonders the daily sunrise and sunset give me.

Temporary lows give me the opportunity to stay driven, fighting, and surviving. Temporary lows help me learn how to handle life the easy way. Temporary lows expose who will stay with me for who I am, no matter what the situation is. When all is said and done, what truly matters are the highs, which are not only temporary. They stay deep within my innermost parts where no one can really see, not even myself in some instances. These highs are the memories I can wrap around myself at night, like a favorite blanket ready to put me to sleep. Sometimes, the lows interfere and produce tears, but tears are even more temporary than smiles. The gift of everyday living far exceeds the burden of temporary lows, stresses, and desperation.

This temporary low I've experienced this week took a toll on my belly, my dignity, my friendships, my health, and my work attendance. I gave up many things that I shouldn't have, I almost gave in to alcohol again. I stopped caring about my health so the sore throat and more came back in a matter of a week. I disregarded great bonds because of unnecessary anger. I cannot erase these mistakes, but at least I got to breath again. No more hiding.

No more rushing. I must enjoy what life gives me. I must give myself to people who think I am important. I must forget those who think I should keep my heart to myself. I am so loved, therefore I must love too. Give this heart to people who appreciate me without premature judgment and uncalled for belittling. I am telling you, this heart is so in demand. Haha.

Acceptance is a gift so freely and effortlessly given when love is present. Don't you dare question that, don't you even dare doubt that one bit. Accept what life gives you. Easily shake off the temporary lows to enjoy the highs. Realize this before it's too late. I'm only 21, I know it's not yet too late. I may have lost a treasure, but there are hidden ones still waiting to be discovered. Thank you for this lesson, from You, my Guide from up above.